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oh, bird of my soul, fly away now ([personal profile] crowkid) wrote2016-09-07 11:20 pm

. contact .



text ○ video ○ voice

[OOC: contact @ [plurk.com profile] fromgilbo]
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ACTION BECAUSE I DO WHAT I WANT

[personal profile] hardballsy 2016-11-11 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's a knock at the door of 47-25, light-knuckled and quick.

Josh isn't sure if Oboro's even in right now — he's probably out working, doing whatever it is he does and won't explain — but he hopes the kid's around. In fact, he feels like he needs the kid to be around. Right now, specifically. He needs Oboro to be the one to open the door, because he has no idea what he'll do with the lump in his throat, otherwise.]
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[personal profile] hardballsy 2016-11-12 12:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oboro opens the door, just as Josh had hoped he would, and... Josh feels silly. Stupid, even. This is as far as his plan went; he didn't think about what he'd do, what he'd say, what the point of the visit even was, really.

He just knows his brain was screaming at him to go find the kid.

He stares down at Oboro, uncertain and hesitant. Does he go inside? Does he say no, wait, my bad, never mind...? Does he say he's sorry, like offering someone condolences over their own death is even useful at all?

His expression changes in that moment, when he has that thought and remembers what carried him here. It becomes unbelievably sad — his shoulders drop, his brow softens, and his eyes lose a little of their usual light. After that, the only thing he can think to do, the only thing that makes sense, is to throw his arms around the kid and pull him in for a tight hug. It's protective and scared all at once; it's the kind of hug you'd give someone who just survived a car crash unscathed while the wreckage is still visible and smoldering in the backdrop. It's the kind of hug that says I'm glad you're still here. It's a hug Josh has never had to give before, but wishes he had the opportunity to in a few cases, and he half-wonders if he's even any good at it.]


It doesn't work the way you think it does. [He says, dropping his head to mumble the explanation quietly.] You don't belong down here.
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[personal profile] hardballsy 2016-11-14 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
[Josh doesn't have nieces. He doesn't have nephews. That opportunity vanished when he was just a boy, and his parents never considered bringing anyone else into the picture after Joanie was gone.

He doesn't have children of his own, either. (And now, he never will.)

Hell, he's never even babysat — in fact, he can't remember, outside of his experiences here, the last time he even talked to a kid. He's sure he's never hugged one at all, let alone like this. It's new. It's weird, in its newness. It makes Josh's chest hurt.

It makes him think of Zoe. It makes him think of Toby and the few conversations they had about fatherhood. It makes him think about his own father, also gone, and —

What's there to say? What's there to do, aside from hold Oboro close for just a few more moments before pulling away?

And in those few moments, which span the space of a few of Josh's own heavy heartbeats, he says:]
For now.

[No final judgment has been passed. Oboro's lucky, in that way.]
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[personal profile] hardballsy 2016-11-15 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
[The question takes him by surprise, and it's in that moment that Josh considers why Oboro asked. He didn't think the kid liked it here — who'd enjoy taking up dangerous jobs just to scrape by? What kind of child would find comfort in a landscape like this?

Unless home was worse.

Unless he had to do worse, in his previous life, just to survive at all.]


No.

[Maybe they're the same, in this regard.

But whatever else he has to say about that gets stuck in his throat. He doesn't want to say he likes it, because that sounds crazy, even if it's a little bit true. He also can't quite find the words to explain that he's found people here he identifies with, despite the angel-demon dichotomy. He doesn't know how to say that it's taken him only a month and change to —

Love is a strong word, but Josh feels it, even here. It's the one emotion Josh has always felt the most strongly, right next to guilt.

He pulls back a bit, but his hands remain on Oboro's small shoulders.]


I'm guessing you don't, either.
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[personal profile] hardballsy 2016-11-16 03:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[Josh came down here expecting a fight. From Brimstone, from the Reform Branch, from everyone damned to eternity in Hell. He came down here a little afraid for himself. He came down thinking he might want to turn tail and run within a day — if that.

But the fights he's had have all been with people he now thinks of as friends, and they haven't so much been fights as passionate disagreements.

Despite the heat, this place feels a lot like home. (With the heat, this place feels a lot like home in summer.)

The friends he'd come to think of as family are all still alive. The family he'd lost when he was younger and then not-so-young are untraceable here — even Nico hasn't been able to locate them. This is all Josh has; these people, condemned though they may be, are all Josh has.]


I saw what you said about why you're here.

[The words are a little strained, but he owes Oboro an explanation.]

And I don't think you should believe that just because you — [No. He's not saying it.] — that just because what happened happened the way it did, you're damned. It's not... automatic.
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[personal profile] hardballsy 2016-11-17 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
[As a messenger of the heavens.

Josh would laugh at that if he weren't so sad.

That's not what he is. He doesn't think of himself like that even a little bit — he's not Horatio; he won't, can't speak of behalf of Heaven. All he has right now is logic and what his heart's telling him.

...what his heart's hoping for, anyway.]


If it were automatic, you wouldn't be a Limbo case.

[And here it comes, something as rare as a total solar eclipse:]

I'm sorry I read your conversation. I shouldn't have done that.

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special delivery

[personal profile] hardballsy 2017-01-14 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[When Oboro returns home today, he'll find a small package waiting for him, wrapped in blue paper: a copy of the Cato Pocket Constitution, which includes the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution, and has a note attached.]

Oboro,

Read this. When you're done, bring it back to me and we can talk.

Josh
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[personal profile] hardballsy 2017-01-26 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
Remember context, and know that there were a great many documents that came before this and influenced it. America's Founding Fathers were great thinkers, inspired and guided by the likes of Plato and Aristotle and a list I could spend all day writing out and still not get halfway through.

So I'm asking you to consider this information in a vacuum, which is a little unfair, but you seem to be doing just fine with tackling the gist of it. A few things I should mention: There's some hypocrisy in here; many of those whose signatures appear in these papers insisting on equality and freedom kept slaves. Also, as you'll see with the addition of the Amendments, the Constitution is a living, breathing document. It changes. It's meant to be flexible and to evolve as the needs of American society evolve.

I don't believe freedom is secondary to safety and happiness; I believe that the three are co-dependent, and for one to exist, the other two must as well. That said, yes, I think it's important to allow people to make mistakes that could be prevented through whatever means. I don't know if that makes anyone happier in the end, but it's another kind of freedom that must be protected. Maybe some of the choices you make bring unhappiness with them, but without the promise of freedom and safety, it'd be almost impossible to find happiness again anyway.

Which I know raises a lot of questions about happiness, and I dunno that I'm the right guy to talk to about that specifically.

You're right that these people were escaping a man and not a higher power, but how familiar are you with the monarchical system itself? There's a whole history there that includes a belief in the "divine right of kings" — it's not something England subscribed to at the time, at least on paper. It comes back to the idea of fate, in some ways. It says that monarchs rule as a result of the will of God, and are therefore not subject to earthly laws. Kings aren't elected to the throne, but are rather born into it. In the United States, we let the people decide who should be given power through the democratic process. We ask them to exercise free will in that way, and we then hold those who are elected to the same set of laws as private citizens. (Mostly. Things get tricky sometimes.)

I'm not sure what you mean by "some may have no other safety but to rely on an unjust lord." If the person in question is unjust, how are they providing any safety? By forcing those under them to submit to the system in place, rather than rebelling against it, and doing them the favor of allowing survival?

This seems like a good point to acknowledge that we're speaking from two vastly different viewpoints. I come from a relatively wealthy family that lived in a safe area of the country. I had every comfort growing up, I was able to attend prestigious schools, and I got a great education. This is often the argument made about politicians: That we're disconnected from the people we serve because of our privilege. I know you saw that in some of that in the documents, especially with the language used — it's not writing that would have been accessible to everyone, but it was still written in what was believed to be the best interests of the country the Founders were trying to form.

The point I'll disagree on you on is your last paragraph, which is why I brought up my background. I don't know the extent of what your life was like before you died, but I have enough evidence to make a somewhat educated guess. Out of respect, I won't. If you want to tell me more, I'll listen.

Those who suffer may incur more suffering as a result of rising against it, but in my experience, that's the first step toward real societal change when those in power have failed. There are plenty of historical examples I could provide from my own world to illustrate that (including slavery). I wish that weren't the case, but there's a reason the phrase "things get worse before they get better" exists. Is that fair? Hell no. But should that stop people from protesting, from demanding better, from seeking relief, from shoving fate off course?

Hell no.
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voice;

[personal profile] shesgotguts 2017-02-13 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
[there's no hello, no calm entrance, just a girl shrilly screaming as loudly as she possibly can, because that's not alarming at all.]

OBORO! CALL ME BACK WHEN YOU GET A CHANCE! I NEED TO TALK TO YOU! LOVE YOU BYE.

[and that's. that...]
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[personal profile] shesgotguts 2017-02-13 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
[oh he's HERE.]

Hi, Oboro! How are you today? I'm not interrupting something important, am I? Because I can wait.
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[personal profile] shesgotguts 2017-02-13 08:46 am (UTC)(link)
Are you sure? I don't want to bother you... I mean, I want to talk to you and see what you're up to, but if you're busy... [but he just said he's NOT.]

I'm just glad to hear your handsome voice. You've been sleeping well and drinking lots of water, right? [let's not talk about her immediate crisis. good idea!]
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[personal profile] shesgotguts 2017-02-13 08:55 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, sure! [liar.] But the room always seems so empty without you. You don't have another big sister, do you? You're not staying with her?

[which, who would stop him if he did? not her. she just wants him to be happier. much happier than she is presently.]
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[personal profile] shesgotguts 2017-02-13 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
I know you've been working. And I'm so proud of you! But take a break soon, okay? We've got all of eternity to work ourselves to another death.

[there's a warmness in her voice-- hopefully, he can hear her smile. but onto better things!] Will we?! I'm so excited! And we should get more pictures of ourselves up. Our room is going to be so beautiful, thanks to you!
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[personal profile] shesgotguts 2017-02-13 09:24 am (UTC)(link)
[well, if he won't take a break, she'll force him to take one, eventually. milly ashford is not to be refused.]

You know? Any place we're together is good enough for me! Part of the fun in taking pictures with someone isn't where you're at. It's getting to share memories with them, and having something that proves it. My favourite pictures will always be of us, smiling together!

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